I think I'm going to be taking my blog in a different direction soon. It's been rolling around in my mind for a little while now and I *think* I may actually go through with it. I've talked it over with some of my close peeps, and prayed about it too. It just feels right for this moment in my life so I think I'm going to go with it.
For a while now, I feel like I've complained about feeling like I'm in a rut or in a niche. About how I only write about my spiritual musings. I've been back and forth and sideways and diagonal. The reason I always balked, is because I wanted to hide the rest of my life. You know, the stuff that doesn't really fit into a spiritual theme blog post.
The whole reason I started this blog was to not hide my Christianity, embarrassing as people may view it in this world today. To not hide my view points on this subject. Not be afraid of judgement. I feel like I accomplished that. I feel comfortable.
That should be good enough. But you don't do amazing things in your life by being comfortable. You might get an amazing nap by being comfortable, but I want to look back on my life and find that my life could've been made into a book and it wouldn't be a sucky book.
THEREFORE, I will be redesigning my blog to not just include my spiritual views, but my life. I will still have "God Thoughts" and a ton of analogies but it will be in with the nitty gritty of my life too.
A Rebekah that strives towards her goals, that's not hiding the rest of her life behind her spiritual mask.
Now, I'm not sure what this will look like, whether it will be a new web address or just a new name. But what I do know, is that I will not be afraid. I'm tired of looking for approval in all the wrong places. It's ok if you think my blog is lame. It's ok if you find my writing lacking. I don't need your approval. I just need my own. And Gods. *takes a deep breath* I'm still scared of peoples quiet judgement but I'm going to go ahead with this to the best of my ability.
I'm ready to get out there. I'm ready to stop being comfortable and start pushing myself.
I'm totally scared sh!tless about this though.
Just so you know.
Here's a couple of picture quotes that sum up how I'm feeling just in case I couldn't communicate it.
|I need to read this every day.|
|Considering how scared I am of making this change...|
|Who couldn't use more magic right?|
|This says it all. Love Anne Lamott. |
I'm looking forward to becoming myself and letting my blog reflect that.